Fear because my daughter started throwing up, and I had no idea when it would stop.
Fear that because she was throwing up, I would be next. And then my husband. And then my son. Oh, please not my son.
Fear that not only was my baby sick, but she was the kind of sick that required a change of clothes for her and me (or my husband) every time she became sick. And possibly a carpet or couch cleaning, depending on where her sick happened.
It was an awful place to be.
But it didn't have to be that way.
Sure, my baby was sick, and for a mom, there's really nothing worse than watching your baby suffer.
But instead of living in the moment, consoling my daughter and embracing her needs, I ulcered my way through the day, worrying about when she'd puke next or when my son would catch it or when, if ever, the plague would leave my house.
The worst part was that not until late afternoon, hours after her spell had come and gone, I realized that not once had I prayed.
I was so consumed with how her illness affected ME that I failed to remember God's command, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." (Philippians 4:6)
Wow, I sure screwed up that one.
I spent my entire Sunday with a pit in my stomach because I was too darn consumed with ME, and oh-baby-girl-please-forgive-me, but I should have been PRAYING over her, and better yet, THANKING GOD for her.
But today is new. And thanks be to God, she is better. And as of now, no one else has caught the bug. Whatdya know, all that worrying and ulcering and festering was only to my own detriment.
How about you? How does Philippians 4:6 apply to your life today?